Lord I believe, help my unbelief.
"Yet the LORD longs to be gracious to you; he rises to show you compassion. For the LORD is a God of justice. Blessed are all who wait for him! O people of Zion, who live in Jerusalem, you will weep no more. How gracious he will be when you cry for help! As soon as he hears, he will answer you. Although the Lord gives you the bread of adversity and the water of affliction, your teachers will be hidden no more; with your own eyes you will see them. Whether you turn to the right or to the left, your ears will hear a voice behind you, saying, "This is the way; walk in it."
Monday, February 16, 2009
Oh That Glory Would Be Given
Thankfulness has been the key area that God has really been speaking to me lately in. Part of the reason would be that, if I have an attitude of thankfulness than there isn't room for complaining. Which then means that there isn't any room for discontentment, comparison, thoughts of lack and a lot of other things. I realize that a lot of the time, I just say that I'm thankful, even when I don't really feel like it because if I let those brief moments of ungratefulness occur... they take over and I lose heart. SO! I'm making a list of some things that I'm so thankful for. And just giving glory to God in general because He deserves it and I really want to make public the things that He has done.
A. He continues to love me. Even though I don't deserve it, most of the time don't feel it, and often times flat out walk away from it.
B. He has blessed me with the most wonderful home in the whole world. I live with three very lovely, very in-love with Jesus women. Amanda :: makes me laugh so much, guaranteed we laugh at least three times during any interaction we have, and it's the good hearty laugh, where I have to cross my legs so I don't pee myself. She offers such encouragement and prayer and tells me in a million ways not to give up. She's a great person to process life with. and lastly... she shares my love of cookies. Kellie :: is so much like Tara and that in itself is so wonderful. The more Tara the better. She is a elementary teacher and brings home the greatest stories of her classroom, that make me laugh. She is organized and loves to spend time with all of us, as a family, she's like the house mom, except... she's younger than all of us by like three years which makes it more comical. and there's Kaylyn :: I just love Kaylyn so much. She has invited me into her life with open arms. she makes me smile SO MUCH. She finds joy and laughs at so much and that makes me laugh, she genuine and not careless with her words and has many dance parties to booty music in the car, kitchen and really wherever else we feel necessary. And she narrates shows... which makes me laugh, because I don't actually think she knows she's doing it.
I love coming home. It has been such a safe haven. It has been a resting ground, a place of life and love and laughter and I'm so grateful that God has given me this home. He fulfills His promise "to place the solitary in families". And I will give all the glory to God for it all. He found it for me, He provided the means to pay for it, cause it's out of my price range and is 30 minutes from my work. He blessed me with a grandma that offered to pay $100/month and gave me a gas card, so I don't have that expense either... not to mention, she pays for my phone... wow. I am blessed financially by Jesus. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you God.
I should stop... cause this is getting long. More gratitude to come. I love you all and miss the ones far away terribly.